I am the only one to blame for this...

go for it!

2006-08-03T04:28:19Z

My name:

Who am I in love with:

Where did we meet:

Take a stab at my middle name:

How long have you known me:

When was the last time that we saw each other:

Do I smoke (weed or cigs):

Do I drink:

What was your first impression of upon meeting me:

Do I have any siblings:

What's one of my favorite things to do:

Am I funny:

What's my favorite type of music:

What is the best feature about me:

Am I shy or outgoing:

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:

Do I have any special talents:

Would you consider me a friend/good friend:

What is a memory we have once had:

Have you ever hugged me:

Do you miss me:

Do you think i miss you:

What is my favorite food:

Have you ever had a crush on me:

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:

Who do I like right now:

What is my worst habit:

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what would i bring?

Will you repost this so I can do it for you?

all_i_want_is_u @ 2006-04-26T12:28:00

2006-04-26T16:31:17Z

so i am participating in Day of Silence 2006. but noone said i cant type. so i am typing alot, and i hadnt been here in a while, so i thought i should let everyone know what i was doing today:)

this is for shaun, josh, john (& james), "squishy" and conni, steve, ricardo, and darin, and everyone else i cant think of at the moment. kuddos to darin for putting it all together at our school, i'm proud of you kiddo.

peace and love always,
JD

oh, and PS, THE NEW GOO GOO DOLLS CD CAME OUT YESTERDAY. and once again, I am in love with johnny rzeznik. mmmmmmmm goodness.

fun times at 3am in south hall....

2006-03-18T08:22:15Z

Your results:
You are Supergirl

Supergirl		80%
Superman		75%
Robin		55%
Spider-Man		50%
Wonder Woman		50%
Green Lantern		50%
Batman		45%
Iron Man		40%
Catwoman		35%
Hulk		30%
The Flash		20%

Lean, muscular and feminine.
Honest and a defender of the innocent.

Click here to take the "Which Superhero am I?" quiz...

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-12-21T21:22:00

2005-12-22T02:23:04Z

Dear friend,

awww shit, I haven't been here in a while. sorry to keep everyone hanging on my oh-so-eventful life. I'm home and bored out of my mind, one reason why I am never home. so here is what has been happening since well....august.

Things with Sean and I didn't work out. I'll leave it at that. Ask me if you really want to know, I don't mind talking about it, but I'd rather not sound like a bitch on livejournal.

Shaun is doing better, things went a little hay-wire in September, but he is doing good. The two of us finally rocked out Nashua again this week. Its been like a year since we have done that, and although it wasn't exactly like old times, it was close enough and it felt good. I just wish things could have been better so he could have stayed in Providence. I miss him so much.

Life in general has been a little hecktick for me since September. Everything with both Sean and Shaun happened in that month, and life never really slowed down since then:
*U2 Concert completely and utterly rocked my socks off.
*I was sick for a little over 2 weeks. I don't know what I had, but I should have gone to the doctors, and I didn't. I was sick for Homecoming/Family weekend. Being out in the cold ass rain all weekend didn't help either (oops!)
*BUT we did win 2nd place in the Performance Category (whoo hoo for $500 for the hall!)
*um....then there was just alot of little things to do, like showpieces for class, and residents being dumb. but some of them do rock.
*Taj had free passes to go see a sneak screening of RENT, about 4 days before it came out. Me, him, and Jason went and I LOVED IT. I sang to the whole thing, they looked at me like I had 3 heads. it was great. (MOO WITH ME!) I then fell in love with Adam Pascal and Anthony Rapp AGAIN. thank god they were in the movie or JD was going to have to choke a bitch.
*I stayed in Prov. and worked in the hall for Thanksgiving break, taking 2 days to come home and eat and decorate. Thats when I found out that nana was in a nursing home and a close family friend has cancer. I loathe how my parents don't tell me things. yet another reason I'm never home.
* Residents were dumb, as always, oops, already said that.
*The SRAs planned this years Res Life holiday party. It got cancelled because of snow. damn winters. We had a staff party in Jason's apartment and had some good fun.
*Greg, the ARD of my building got premoted last week, so he is at a different hall now, *tear*, but i'm happy for him, go team.

and there is lots more, but way too much to talk about tonight.

i'm home until the 1st. 11 MORE DAYS!!!!! call if you are in the area!

last thing I would like to say, for those who are actually still reading this: hello to all and hope all are doing decent duing this holiday season.

<3 always

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-08-30T08:26:00

2005-08-30T12:28:20Z

dear friend,

I am currently sitting desk at the South Side Safari. go team go.
I am so freakin tired from 8 days of non stop training.
I can't wait for it all to begin!

<3 always
JD

excitement arises

2005-08-17T01:25:00Z

5 more days until SRA training begins, which means 6 days until new hire RA training begins, which means i get to see my dave st. hilaire (aka my gay boyfriend)

1 month 2 days until I get to see U2 in Boston.

rock on.

i miss sean.

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-08-12T00:26:00

2005-08-12T04:26:25Z

dear friend,

its time for my bi-monthly update....

CX is over, and it was fun while it lasted. But the good news is that I'm going to do it again next year. It was a great experience, and while it was a little over dramatic at times (including myself) it was a blast, and was the biggest factors in the best summer ever.

Shaun is still in the hospital, things aren't going too well. I really wouldnt know though because I have now way of contacting anyone who really knows anything. But I continue praying for him and hopefully everything turns out for the best.

I'm back home now until the 21st. 9 MORE DAYS UNTIL TRAINING BEGINS! Jason and Greg are officially my RDs, and I havent had any news on the rest of the staff, other than Steve Dean. Thus begins another interesting school year...

Other than that there is nothing more to say. have a good night all...

peace and love always
<3 JD

and sean, if you are reading this i love you more than anything in the world...I miss you so much.

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-08-05T19:08:00

2005-08-05T23:08:04Z

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-06-22T19:11:00

2005-06-22T23:32:41Z

dear friend,

i figured it was time for a real update.

things out here have been going well, alittle boring at times, but well. the drama never ceases in my work life, and well, right now it is just stupid crap, so i am avoiding it at all costs. this weekend is our first CX weekend. i'm so excited! cant wait to show all the little high school kids how wierd and dorky i am. i just do it so well :) but office hours do have they're occasional fun time. and boring times.

class is going decent, no grades below an 83 yet, and we've watched 2 movies-a clockwork orange, and one flew over the cuckoo's nest, and tomorrow we are watching a beautiful mind. and by now you are asking, what class is she taking? general phsyc kids, and its very interesting. and why during the summer? cause the school is paying for it cause i am working for them. go team go.

on to other events. birthday was nice and relaxed. i had to do tours over on harborside in the morning, and then i went to the beach with sean and his parents. we were there for only 3 hours, and it was cloudy and cold. and sean still managed to get a sun burned, and i got no color what-so-ever. then we went to dinner at smokey bones and went to the mall for a bit. sean's dad bought the new coldplay cd and sean burned it onto his computer, and i put it on my computer. AND IT ROCKS MY SOCKS OFF. you know what else rocks my socks off? the fact that jason mraz has a new album coming out on july 26th :) i love his new song 'wordplay'. eeeeeeeeeeee. i cant wait.
ok, so back to my birthday. sean got me the 3rd season of ER on dvd. i just successfully completed watching the entire thing last night. go team. i kinda was nervous that my parents got it for me. then we went over to nicholas' apartment, had a little campfire, roasted some hot dogs and made smores and stayed the night there. came back in the morning and my dad came to visit. but he forgot to get the ER dvd, so all was good. they did get me the 8th season of M*A*S*H, which i have also completed. yes, i have been very bored lately. so the birthday was good.

mom went in for surgery a couple days before my birthday, she ended up missing graduation at moppet school...hopefully everything went well, cause neither of us were there. oops. first year i havent been there since my mom started working there. but we all have to move on sometime, right? and mom's doing well, she even has her own cell phone now...if she could only learn how use it.

friday i went to six flags, the hall did it as a program, and it was freeeeeeeeeeeeee! well, for us at least. are you still reading this? i should probably stop writing now...i know you aren't. but i'm gonna keep going. so i went and hung out with sean, becky, monica, dave ("guzik"), abby, jason ("lifer"), and steve ("smazz" or "smalls"~yes, nicknamed after smalls from the sandlot). We had a WICKED lotta fun. i went on all the good roller coasters including superman, and batman rides.
dave and i spent too much money on games.
smazz was like a little kid.
sean got sunburned again.
we all wondered about smazz and abby.
life was grand.
i wish we could all do it again, and that some more people from the school year were here.

well, off to lindsay's apartment for a while
peace and love
JD

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-06-17T07:49:00

2005-06-17T11:51:09Z

dear friend,

knowing that steve dean is SRA with me at south next year makes me ready to for anything already. yes, you read right, STEVE DEAN, SRA, SOUTH HALL WITH ME, NEXT YEAR. go team go.

alright, i'll update later...
off to 6 flags for the day.

rock out
JD

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-06-10T23:04:00

2005-06-11T03:05:12Z

i found this today, and thought i would do it, just for cesar and the east hallers....even though probably none of you read it:

Your Mexican Name Is...

Doña Elsa

What's your Mexican Name?

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-06-10T13:46:00

2005-06-10T17:46:30Z

and this one, just because i can ;)

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-06-09T10:20:00

2005-06-09T14:21:32Z

You Are 24 Years Old

24

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-06-05T13:38:00

2005-06-05T17:40:27Z

to everyone that has graduated this year, wether its from college, high school, or middle school, CONGRATS!
and sorry to those whose parties i could not make it to, i still love you all, i'm just in providence for the summer... :)

go team go

<3 JD

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-05-31T22:09:00

2005-05-29T02:26:55Z

dear friend,

well, today was an interesting one. woke up early, which considering my schedual for the past 3 months, was actually sleeping in, to do yard work. And because it was such a B-E-A-UTIFUL day out, i attempted to get a tan, but that didnt work. i still think i'm the most white italian person ever right now. not cool. Got the pool set up, helped my mom in the garden and then realized it was 12:30. Then i showered and went to see Shaun for a bit. Then i came back home for about an hour, and went to the High school play. It was cute, but i definately saw the one person that i didnt want to see, mrs. freakin yalden. oy. but i did get to see the last of the drama club people i once knew and loved.

me: not to sound like a petifile or anything, but 3 of the guys who played "the beatles" were really cute
joella: yeah, they are all freshman
me: well, i'm definately feeling alittle old right now

so then i came home and the desmonds and mrs caldwell came over for dinner. and they left at about 9:45. and about 10 minutes ago sean called me to tell me that he was on his way to the hospital because he fell off his bike at home and hurt his back. I know he'll be alright, but i started to cry on the phone, probably because i couldnt be there with him. i definately just realized how much i love him. its so wierd how that happens, it was like a big smack in the face. i know he'll be fine, he's with his family, and i'm sure he'll be alright, he has to be, but the fact that i cant be there right next to him right now is just killing me so much that i'm giving myself a headache from crying. so i should probably go to bed.

that was my interesting day.

love always
<3 JD

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-05-24T21:42:00

2005-05-25T02:00:19Z

dear friend,

ever get that feeling that you want to tell someone something, but you can't so it just stays in your mind forever?

if i could look sean in the eye and honestly say this to him it would be this:

i often feel like i'm not good enough for you. you are the one of the most beautiful and amazing people that has ever walked into my life. you are way too good to me, and i am so scared that i might wake up and and it will all be a dream. i try so hard to be that same person for you, but know that i could never be that good. you're the only thing on my mind when you're not by my side, and even when you are. i always count the time until i can hold you again. i never want to loose you, and i'm afraid everyday that something will tear us apart, even though you make it seem like nothing will get in our way, and i pray that it never will. you have helped me be able to look forward to each and every tomorrow, which is something i haven't been able to do in a very long time. i dont know if you can even conceve how much that means to me. i love you so much and i want you to always be my sunshine.

ahh, it feels better to get that out of my system, even if the whole world knows it, and it was a little cheesy. but oh well.

love always
JD

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-05-21T22:59:00

2005-05-22T03:06:03Z

dear friend,

here is how the day went:

~sat desk one last time at east hall from 8am to noon. did nothing, watched tv (yes abby let me have a tv there:)

~showered

~met family in the lobby

~changed and headed out to the bus

~GRADUATED WITH MY ASSOCIATES DEGREE!

~Went to Olive Garden with the fam

~packed up what i didnt need for the summer and sent it home with the fam

~hung out at south for a bit

~and am now sitting with my sunshine in his room :)

yay
peace and love always
JD

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-04-23T10:54:00

2005-04-23T14:56:40Z

Name: Jen
screen name: Gutterflower9402
birthday: June 11th, 1985
age: 19
astrological sign: Gemini
location: Providence
piercings: ears pierced twice, and cartilege on the left one
tattoos: none
height: short
shoe size: 8 1/2
hair colour: brown
length: long
siblings: 1- older sister

LAST;
movie you rented: its been such a long time, i dont remember
movie you bought: Um, well, steph bought me ladder 49, does that count?
song you listened to: Sparks by Coldplay
song that was stuck in your head: Yellow, because i'm listening to it right now
cd you bought: Music from the O.C. volume 4
cd you listened to: Dashboard Confessional-a mark, a brand, a mission, a scar
person you called: steph
person that's called you: Mom
tv show you've watched: The OC
person you've though of: Sean :)

DO;
you have a bf or gf: yes yes
you have a crush on someone: well, obviously
you wish you could live somewhere else: Hell yes.
you think about suicide: nope
you believe in online dating: ummm, not a fan of it
others find you attractive: i dont know why, but appearently some people do
you want more piercings: yeah
you drink: special occasions
you do drugs: nope
you smoke: ummmm....
you like cleaning: when i'm in the mood for it
you like roller coasters: heck yeah
you write in cursive or print: print
you ever get off the computer: only when it doesnt work, or i have to go to work
swear a lot: fuck yeah
own a web cam: nope
know how to drive: Know, yes, but i dont
own a cell phone: Yup
you have a dream that keeps coming back: Occassionaly
you play an instrument: used to
believe there is life on other planets: nope
you remember your first love: um, yeah
you still love him/her: not really
you read the newspaper: i read the comics and the lifestyle/arts section
you have any gay or lesbian friends: hells yeah, look who your talking to
you believe in miracles: yes
you believe it's possible to remain faithful forever: heck yeah
you consider yourself tolerant of others: i kinda have to be for my job
you consider love a mistake: no
you have a favorite candy: Reeeses!!
you believe in astrology: well, its fun to read
you believe in magic: not really
you do well in school: i try, whether i do or not is a different story
you go to or plan to go to college: Well, i'm already there, so i hope so.
you wear hats: when i'm in the mood to do so
you hate yourself: Ask me that question this time last year, and i would have said definately, but i am trying very hard to overcome that.
you have an obsession: heck yeah
you have a secret crush: its definately not a secret
do they know yet: ha ha ha, i hope so ;)
you collect anything: oh god yes, i'm a freakin pack rat, i collect everything
you have a best friend: Yes yes, Shaun!
you like your handwriting: sometimes
you care about looks: i dont even have a mirror in my dorm room, so that would be a "hell no"

FOR OR AGAINST;
long distance relationships: well, last time didnt really work out, but i'm willing to give it a shot again, as long as they are this time too.
using someone: against
suicide: against.
killing people: against
teenage smoking: against
premarital sex:
driving drunk: sooooooooo against
gay/lesbian relationships: go for it, kids.
soap operas: hee hee, i watched general hospital for years with my mom

FAVOURITE;
food: italian, duh.
song: I cant name my favorite song, there are too many of them.
book: just read my facebook profile.
things to do: facebook profile again.
thing to talk about: anything except for stupid people, and politics
sports: Soccer
drinks: water, tea, and hot cocoa
clothes: something comfy. Gotta love sweatshirts!
band/singer: holy crap, you ready? here goes: u2, goo goo dolls, coldplay, dmb, john mayer, gavin degraw, jason mraz, jars of clay, dashboard confessional, the list goes oooooooooon and on
holiday: christmas
new nerdy saying: "flippin sweet"
ever cried over a girl: um, just friends
ever lied to someone: yes
ever been in a fist fight: not yet
ever been arrested: nope

NUMBER;
of times I have been in love: oy.
of times I have had my heart broken: twice
of hearts I have broken: well, 1 maybe two
of girls I have kissed: 0
of boys I have kissed: 4
of girls I have slept with: 0
of boys I have slept with: 0
of drugs taken illegally: 0
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type: 4, other than my family
of people I consider my enemy: 0
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: No idea
of scars on my body: way too many to count
of things in my past that I regret: a few

FAVORITE;
disney movie: The Lion King and Beauty and the Beast
scent: fruity stuff
word: hmm. unencumbered, dont know what it means though
guy name: Eli
girl name: Clementine
eye color: anything
flower: daisies, irises, and sunflowers
piercing: the one in my left ear
actress: drew barrymore

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE;
pretty: nope
funny: occasionally
hott: depends what type of hot you are talking about ;)
friendly: yes
amusing: yeah
fat: Yes
loveable: Yeah
pessimistic: on a bad day
optimistic: on a good day
caring: yeah
dorky: of course

AS OF RIGHT NOW;
current mood: happy but tired
current music: we have switched to dashboard confessional's vindicated
current taste: toothpaste
current hair: wet and up in a bun
current annoyance: nothing
current smell: my vanilla chaostick
current thing i ought to be doing: my co-op project
current crush: we have already been over this-my boyfriend
current favorite celebrities: matt damon! and many, many, many more
Current hate: hm...a few of my residents, but you didnt read that
current job: resident assistan (whose SRA at the Dirty,Dirty next year?!) and co-op at the bakeshop at Brown University

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-04-06T15:35:00

2005-04-06T19:37:16Z

when a guys rides his bike from edmund hall to see you, and then rides back at midnight, you know he's a keeper:)

<3

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-03-31T18:55:00

2005-03-31T23:56:36Z

"I'm 5. and a half. In spirit. I'm a confused toddler, who's not yet potty-trianed on the toilet of life."

"I dont skinny dip, i chunky dunk."

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-03-18T21:22:00

2005-03-19T02:24:29Z

U2-october 3rd-fleet center-boston.

rock on.

long needed update, but its gonna be a short one....

2005-03-14T21:55:17Z

so i woke up for my internship at 6am today. time i am suppose to be there: 6am. freaked out for about 10 minutes. didnt make it there until 7. oh well, they didnt really care anyways.

tiring day as always.

came back to the hall afterwards, find out my early birthday gift from my sister still hasnt arrived. bummer.

doing laundry and dad calls. my uncle called them because he wanted my cell number because he has tickets to the u2 concert and wants to know if i want to/can go.

today was a very good day.

go team go.
peace out
JD

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-03-07T18:50:00

2005-03-07T23:51:02Z

"We are going to be okay, we may not be as happy as we've always dreamed we would be, but for the first time lets just allow ourselves to be whatever it is we are, and that will be better, okay?.... I think that will be better."

all_i_want_is_u @ 2005-03-04T17:19:00

2005-03-04T22:20:00Z

the soundtrack to your life by cuteliz34
name
opening credits	this time next year by the movie life
love song	she paints me blue by something corporate
heart break song	you're so last summer by taking back sunday
I hate you song	no sensitivity by jimmy eat world
everythings ok song	float on by modest mouse
closing credits	the last song by all american rejects

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Woodchuck749: (insert hairy eyeball here)

2005-03-04T01:45:50Z

dear friend,

while working in the dorm this week, i have successfully watched way too many movies/tv shows this week, and i still have another day with the tv at the front desk.

my sister rocks so much. she told me today that she is sending out my birthday gift next week. you may wonder why now, its only march. well, after much convinceing to tell me what it was she said that ladder 49 is coming out on dvd on tuesday the 8th, and she is buying for me and sending it out the next day. i am so freakin excited! go team go.

then, while i was on the phone with mom and dad, my mom tried to get my cat to talk to me. ha ha ha, i love them so much. they're coming to visit tomorrow :) yay! oy, that means i have to clean.

and for those of you who care, i joined facebook...

now i am off to have a cleaning party with myself
over and out,
peace,
JD

Gutterflower9402: you gonna come down for graduation?
Woodchuck749: yea ill be there duh
Gutterflower9402: yay
Woodchuck749: unless a hot firefighter kidnaps me and he has a younger hot brother your age who is a firefighter
Gutterflower9402: OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Woodchuck749: then i will be in marriage negotiations for the two of us